Anissa,
There are so many things I wish you were here for RIGHT now. Though I sense you all the time and believe that God lets you visit us sometimes its just not the same.......You were always the one who I could call just to sing a song I was hearing on the radio back from "the day" and you would chime right in and we would break it down right there on the phone. I was watching a new show called Dont Forget the Lyrics and thought how much fun we would be having playing phone tag during commercials singing to each other. I was telling the story the other day about us singing "Heavens Just a Sin Away" at church camp......lol We must know the words to thousands of songs. And every time I hear a song I either hear you singing along with me or if its a new song, one thats come out since you left us I think.....yep Anissa would love this one. I have written so much since you died that pages have turned into notebooks. Putting my pain on paper and making something beautiful out of it somehow redeems me for the day and I'm able to go on. People ask me how I'm able to do it and I dont know honestly. I just HAVE to do something since your not here and writing is what my something is. I'll forever remember and treasure me and you and Mom singing the night of Ashers party as we were cleaning up. Asher was leaning his head way over and looking so intent at us and taking in every note. Thats the last time we sang together. There are new songs in my heart now....songs of pain and suffering and remembering you. I want the world to hear them....I want you to hear them and since music is one thing I KNOW exists in heaven maybe you can hear them even now and sing with me one more time. My heart will always know what you sounded like even if my ears
can't hear a thing.
Love you....
Gunka
